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Its been a while since my last upload in 2015 and so much has changed….

First and foremost the biggest change that has happened in my life so far is my dads passing … it is the most profound and has made the biggest impact on my life. I understand that he is not in pain any more and he is able to be at peace. 1 year on and im still empty.

The reason for me coming back to this blog is I think that writing is my weird way of letting things out when I feel like I have no one. When I am isolated and I feel just so overwhelmingly negative.

I used to write in a notebook late at night with the torchlight in my room while everyone else slept but then I realised that it would become reading material for unwanted eyes so I decided to take it online. I suppose im not scared of people that I dont know reading these posts. So it gives me an excuse to let loose … these are my diary entries so get prepared for the grammar and spelling mistakes.

I think that’s all for this post … hopefully I’ll be more active 🙂 bye

Monologue of Book Worm Sadness

Hello Again.

In a day and age of everything digital sometimes I wonder is this really a good thing?

Being a child of the digital age where all the information that I have ever wanted was at a simple click of a mouse, Tho it is fantastic ! literally the whole world is at my finger tips I have to admit nothing still beats walking into a store and looking for bargain in the racks and racks or shelves of items waiting to be discovered.

This takes me to one of the most heartbreaking things to see, When a bookshop closes its doors, I understand that book shops are becoming obsolete books in general take up alot of space. I can just as easily put a digital version on my tablet and continue reading on the go, but that is not the point here. In my not so humble opinion there is nothing better then the smell of a new book. (yeah i know that it is probably going to sound weird) I love the smell and the atmosphere of bookshops(specially the one that used to be at my place) where it has a cafe inside the store, so I would used to sit there and read while browsing my life away spending hours and hours looking at the new books in the shelves. I would purposefully purchase more books then I would carry because I knew that the shop was loosing customers due to the digital age.

The store was my place of peace from the tragic knife that is reality, It broke my heart when they closed its doors.

Not long after most of the book stores in my area started closing and being replaced with banks, Hair Salons, cafes, even stores like Kmart and Target were shrinking there books sections because they wanted to make more room for there technology sections. Even my parents started complaining about my book collection/habit the main argument that they would pose was that I was wasting my time and money on them, Apparently reading novels was getting me know where in life, I should focus on reality not what happens in my books. My response to this argument is simple. How as an IT graduate in a country that does not care about technology supposed to get a job in the country? How? The government is moving jobs that I could have had overseas. Companies are allowed to ship all there IT staff there because its cheaper on the company. meaning more people that are in my situation cannot find the jobs that we are qualified to do and so we are stuck.

It was like feeling like a smoker being shunned by the non smoking people in the world or like Naruto in the early days where he was shunned and had no idea why,  I could not understand why this was happening and why there was such a negative backlash for me enjoying novels like I do.

Or maybe its just me ?

Bye

Book Review: RELISH – My life in the kitchen By Lucy Knisley

As a person who is more like a self proclaimed book worm i have read a few really great novels and comic books in my time. Pretty much as a way to give myself more things to post on here about i have decided that it may be a good idea to share the books that i have read.

Today is a graphic novel by the name of RELISH – My life in the kitchen  By Lucy Knisley and is a biographical graphic novel about how food has been a major part of the authors life and how it has power to connect people together.

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I am not going to lie this particular graphic novel would normally be something that i wouldn’t normally pick up on the shelf but it did come as  recommended reading with the All Star Woman’s Comic Book Club here in Melbourne and so for science i decided to pick it up and give it a go, I was presently surprised,

I really did love innocents of the layout the way the stories flowed and revolved around the recipes that really mattered to her and also you gat the actual recipies used in the stories at the end of the chapter, The illustrations are easy flowing and remind me of drawings i would have probably done in high school in my planners and notebooks between notes on lessons or located in the boarders of the page, while we are on the topic the illustration is so cute and fun.

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In my own personal experience overall about this graphic novel. As i said before as something i wouldn’t normally try i actually really liked it. it was a plesent change from the things that i would have normally read, and i since i have finished it i have since recommended and lent out my copy of this novel to some friends. That being said i have still have to hear from them to see what they think. 🙂

i would give it a 7 out of 10 🙂

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Cosplay Formal 2015 Monologue

Greetings,

So there was recently a time period where I had fallen behind on my posts on this blog and I would love to let to guys in as to why I was unable to post in a little while.

One of the events that were keeping me busy was an event called the cosplay formal this particular event is in its second year. And to put it simply I had a blast.

The cosplay formal is an event where cosplayers take there favourite characters and dress up for a one night only formal event, There is a cosplay best dressed compitions with prizes sponsored by madman for the winners and also this year they have interest from a cosplay magazine where the winners of the competition get featured in the magazine which is pretty amazing if you ask me. Also like a formal there was a large amount of drinking and dancing.

WHAT CRAZY THINGS HAPPENED AT THIS SHINDING OF COSPLAYERS?

Before I begin I will not be mentioning any real names of some of the individuals that attended for obvious reasons. But needless to say that I will be using their character names instead J

In the beginning, where our origins of the night began I meet up and Avatar Korra’s house of residence. It was a lovely late afternoon day the clouds were all casually floating around and the sun was shining.  When I Card Captor Sakura arrived we said our greetings/ Salutations to each other and then proceeded in getting ourselves for the interesting evening while we waited for Darkrai to join our party, Not long after Darkrai appeared so we got ready and began our quest to get food and then get to the event.

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As we were making our way to the place where we obtain sustenance we had a few stares from the general populace but nothing to exciting. When we arrive the stares continued but still nothing out of the ordinary. But that was the least of our worries … getting to the event was an adventure in itself.

The mini adventure of getting to the event began when we were on route more along the lines of not knowing what stop to get off at… and then our greatest obstacle … finding the front door of the place. To our defence there were misleading signs everywhere which made obtaining our goal much more difficult like in a boss battle kind of way. But we did it!! We made it to the front door alive and very few casualties… meaning my nails were the casualties but we achieved our goal and entered the even shamelessly late.

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As soon as we walked through the doors there were amazingly dressed cosplayers everywhere everything was decorated amazingly, people were having fun, drinking, dancing, flirting pretty much having a jolly good time. One thing that I love about these events is that everyone is in a good mood there was no nastiness and everyone was really chilled out and relaxed. The Australian cosplay community is where I really do feel like I am at home, Where I truly belong, Where I can be myself and I don’t have to hide my weirdness, Where I can be plain and simple me.

Of course at this point of time we stumble upon a wild Inuyasha which after a small fangirl and a mild introduction joins our group and then our social exploration deeper into the social habits of our fellow cosplayers. Which after many fangirls and photos from both professional and normal photographers, having a few drinks at the bar and more photos of water bending and OOTP transformations the bulk of the night finished and it was time for us to migrate to the after party. Where there was pretty much the same thing… drinking, photos, DANGERZONING at the expense of archer while screaming for Lana to appear, placing plastic candles down certain areas of clothing to make sure the opposite sex realises and to highlight that in fact those areas exist.

Not long after the techno subsided and they finally put on some 70, 80, and 90’s songs which we could all sing and dance to and a little while after that we we buggered and then decided that the trip home would be quite a good idea and so we left. The car ride home was a nice and short one for me at least, then I stayed up and played pokemon for the rest of the evening /morning because why the hell not !!!.

All in all it was a fantastic evening, If I had to compare it to last year I would have to say that it would be much better organised and much more thought out with alot more things to do and look forward to and personally I cannot wait to go next year.
THE AFTER PARTY HIGHLIGHTS !!

So pretty much the highlights of the evening, these are not in any particular order.

  • Irish Deadpool Dry humping a pirate,
  • Deadpool declaring his love to said pirate,
  • Maleficent and Miss Targarian having a moment in the corner,
  • having a moment with Archer,
  • having a massive group Selfie with Mr Tony Stark,
  • Deadpool bragging about being a “big boy”.

There are a few more but at the moment I cannot think of them.

Thanks for reading until next time XOXO

Hidden “O” Monolugues

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Song “O” by coldplay from the new ghost stories album. This song is actually one of my favorite songs on the album

I was drawn to this song because it is so simple and raw. regarding the score /musically simple but lyrically complicated and meaningful. The song is just simply brilliant almost angelic and at the same time has a hint of sadness.

this song helps me to relax and put everything into perspective. This song is more like a reflection piece of music to me, this song just sounds like it would be perfect for a day when you just want to reflect and watch the rest of the world go by. When you don’t really care about the daily grind. you know kinda like listening to it while spending time relaxing with your special someone. which in this cast is my cat (forever alone)

This song is just so amazing as hell. along with the whole album is aloso just so amazing it is just so beautifully written just OMG .

“just fly on, fly through, maybe one day i’ll fly next to you “

Fluffy Pillow Monologues

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So Apparently it’s 2015 **wow**

So i am suppose that this is possibly the first thing that i have written in 2015 ** But when the is published it is going to end up being published alot later then intentionally planned** and if you have not realised i kind of suck at thins kinda thing

In that case i suppose that its  time for those world famous new year resolutions.

you know the new year resolutions…. those things that you promise yourself that “yep its my year to actually achieve something” you get all pumped and the motivation lasts for only 2 weeks and then it ends in a really nice ball of guilt. Which then reminds you of crappy fireworks and you continue to drag these same resolutions into the next year.

so these are my 2015 resolutions(lets see how far i get into this list this year shall we)

  1. Loose weight(drop another dress size).
  2. Post riddles on the FB group “Lumos” more frequently
  3. Post more blog entries(as in catch up)
  4. Eat healthier(i can see this failing quite quickly actually)
  5. Walk the dogs/ exercise more (this one also possibly a fail but we shall see right)
  6. Fix passport
  7. Get a full time job
  8. Finish pokemon Ruby
  9. Start pokemon X

**Authors Note** this list may grow depending on what sad things i plan to push myself into doing

With new years resolutions I think that keeping it realistic is better. All these things are things that i can and want to do so i think that 1 year is a good enough time frame for me to get my ass into gear and get things done.

**Authors Note** yey my hand writing is getting better (very slowly… meaning that i can kinda read what i have written)

Another thing that i was thinking about adding to the list was to great more unboxing vids regarding the look crate vids but honestly i am unsure if that’s a good idea or not.

  • start writing my day dreams onto here? possibly start a game story? << honestly i have no idea what this is about.

what i was meaning by this was to take the random scenarios/ situations that i daydream about and write them down on here and maybe possibly one day link them all together to make a giant storyline with characters and adventures(this train of thought is still a working progress tho) why am i planning on doing this? well simply because i can

regarding why i want to increase my blog upload rate? simply because i really wanted to see what would happen.

So to make sure that i kinda stay on track with the whole blogging thing that i am starting at the moment i went out and actually brought a whole bunch of blogging notebooks over boxing day to help me get started. So let us see what happens ey? let us see how many things on this list of resolutions i will be able to complete

Couch Potato Monologues Part 1

After a full day which basically involved sleep, gym, food, shopping, food, and coffee i have basically nothing to add.

No lie my life is so uneventful and insanely boring

i can imagine if i wrote a captains log it would be very uneventful e.g.

  • 11:14pm sitting here writing to nobody
  • 11:20pm sitting here writing to nobody listening to Xmas in the domain T>V> show
    •  i think that its ending
  • 11.30pm: **DRAMATIC head turn an sudductively looks towards the imaginary potential romantic person while in the back round plays cheezy romantic music … and then imaginary kiss** while the cat silently judges me ….. at this point in time i have realised that i need friends
  • 11.20pm: << **because screw you time travel is possible** mum walks in singing Christmas songs out of tune … you know because she is worth it ? maybe? seriously who knows.
    • “We wish you Armericana”
      • now i am aware of where my amazing lack of F’s when it comes to song lyrics came from
      • its times like these where i can fully appreciate my weird and awkward family

      No lie sometimes i think that i was adopted because of my weird way of communicating. Then on the rare occassions when my parents decide to humanise themselves i then realise that in fact that i was part of there gene pool which somehow de-evolved into the weird and unreliable humanoid that i am today.

      The cake is in fact the truth it is reality that is a lie !!

      Ao i have forgotten to mention i was invited to a coffee shinding with two lovely individuals and one new unknown variable

      The inknown variable is the new partner of one of my friends, Which is awkward… this means i have to be somewhat rational (in other words this is going to end badly

      I am afraid, I am very afraid)

      me+social= A chemical reaction that could either create something beautiful or t could result in the deaths of millions of people.

Lets see how this goes … CC out !

The Toilet Monologues Record 1

They say that people think about life changing things in the shower which can basically explained in the following(this is all my opinion no research has been done on this):

  • The running water has a really weird way of purifying the air which in turn allows fresh oxygen to enter your system
  • The bath water hitting your back is relaxing and allows the mind to wander leading to genius
  • clean air + relaxation = Activate Albert Einstein Mode

Buy why oh why do i on the other hand always seem to think about these kind of things on the toilet? its things like this that baffle me … no seriously

Mini Intro?
I could be anyone ..
More like I dont really wish to have any identifier..
I am just a weird person that types on a computer about the weird crap that happens in my life which I really dont expect anyone to read..
And hence the name “Internal Monologues” << I had to add the “My” because internal monologues was in fact taken

Why am I doing this?
I have been told by a few people that my personality is apparently interesting enough that I should consider blogging(so in a way I am kind of caving to peer pressure just a bit) and also it could be a way to get my brain to shut up which could in turn allow me to sleep better(this is in fact a hypothesis which I am willing to test out)

So I am jumping straight in and giving it a go I mean why not right ?
its not like anyone is going to read this anyway.

Sadly I have not figured out a way to end these kind of things … so i guess I’ll just say bye

bye?